chinyeng::jann
16th May 1987
miss.recluse@hotmail.com
QUOTE
"When you do something great, and somebody says "I like that", You should look at them and say Thank you I worked very hard on this and it's really great , because it the only way to get that sharable sense of value in your life...truthfully if you don't honor your own work, you're nothing. So honor your own work and anything that you do..." GaGa
WishList
Learn French/German/Melayu
The Annotated Alice:The Definitive Edition - L.Carroll
Complete ACCA by end of 2010
Timepiece
Dr Dre Heartbeats
Sony Alpha DSLR A230
Carrera champion bianco nero
Biker jacket
Queen's couture dim mak's shirt
Go to MOCA & Warhol museum
New spectacles New leather strap for watch
Mess up my hair
Moleskine Woodstock Peace Notebook Moleskine 2010 Planner
Medical check-up
An Establishment Vehicle
An Apartment
I just received an sms that states 'on 23 nov 09, at about 1045pm, we left novena cali together...you were walking behind me out of novena cali until the level 3 escalator when u divert your direction to the lifts.. pls reply me if u r the person. Would like to noe u..thx'
the thing is how did this person got my hp no? shitty. and i totally cant remember what i did, nor if i did go to gym. i'll usually take the lift because i drive there. i just want to know how did the person landed up with my no...damn
by the way, last week pk broke her drawer (because she put her foot on it). I really hate to take pictures with my e71, the photos are always of poor quality no matter how you try to save it with photoshop...
the drawer was mainly fixed up with furniture staples, so im not surprised it's so fragile. well, my boss's super stingy so you cant expect him to buy expensive things. our furniture and the partition that were made are all from msia because the price is super cheap.
i hardly drink this christmas, just food. Just last week i had steak 3 times (ribeye and sirloin), and it's medium rare, which means more calories. to compensate for that i didnt drink much because i was told recently that hard liquor pack more calories than beer! If you mixed it with juice or soft drinks, you are making it worst. That's why now i go for neat. And yes, im cutting down on drinking, although it's a torture but for the sake of my health (and weight), got to do it (after another drinking session which someone owe me). however, white and red wine is permitted =)
This christmas is the only time i receive presents but i didnt give! well because i didnt have time. zs's best, he said it's snowing in texas. kept tempting me to go there, emphasising accommodation is foc. he's totally enjoying his time there and he's actually doing purchasing and simple accounts too! (his job is that of system analyst).
Shall end with a music video from P!nk's, most of her videos are fun and help you destress =)
i hate talking to people who says they got this problem and etc when the solution is obvious since it's something you can fix but you CHOSE not to.
i hate talking to people who kept telling me they regret this and that and if only they can go back to that moment. i hate it because 'why cant you just let it go?'. it's really no use fretting over it, for goodness sake it's past!
i do think back and question myself 'what would happen if i chose this?' but then it will be a full stop to it. i dont brood or start imagine what would have happened. and im proud to come thus far (even though i have ruined plenty of stuff along the way), but still, no regrets. and i really feel that what i have gained by far outweigh all the 'what if' stuff; the friends, experience, knowledge, life skills etc.
and quoting from Alice's adventures in wonderland by Lewis Carroll,i read this when i was in primary 2 or 3 (received this from some award that i cant remember):
'But it's no use going back to yesterday, because i was a different person then.'
one way i get through different part of my life is from the recollections of different quotes and stories that were etched in my head.
to make it as durable as possible, i would have to start putting them down in writing (benjamin frankin), ok that's an excuse for me to get myself this. saw it at 313 hmv but still resisting from temptation to get it, getting this and the 2010 organiser will go up to about $100...i have a special affection towards the peace sign
by the way i went to mng sales, there is nothing that i fancy despite the prices being so low. and as soon as i walked out i saw a lady with a graphic tee from mng that some aunties were busying trying just now...ops..
however never see anything i like from mango doesnt mean i never spend...have to really pray very hard that monday is a good day!
just to round things up, it's not that i dislike people pouring out their hearts to me, but if im in a foul mood and you complain on such stuff, it's an annoyance. by the way am i really such a good listener? because you know, we ladies cant control bitching =)
i want to head down to mandarin gallery...i so wanted to 'participate' in the mango sales, buy the marc jacob shirt, head down to levi's for new pair of jeans, go to zara at 313, buy a new bag, wallet, shoes etc etc but the issue is i have no money...
coming week i will be auditing a company located somewhere near central mall...and it's scary because im afraid i will walk there after work (which i did last year). wish my loot will arrive asap so that i wont think about other stuff on my shopping list! bought it in us (during the period when im on leave =.=''') cos it's slightly cheaper than if i were to buy it here which cost S$240! pk saying she will have her lv bag and wallet bought from us via her friend...it's so tempting...she was the one who tempted me with coach too, and i fell into the trap...now it seems to be happening again...
thankfully due to time difference, didnt manage to msn zs much if not sure will ask him to help me buy some stuff there and bring it back, especially many brands are dirt cheap there as compared to here.
need to distract myself with other stuff if not i will continue to desire what i want but couldnt get my hands on. ok go revise french!
oh my im sleeping later and later each day! anyway was dead beat today, most probably due to lack of sleep. thus on the bus to cathay i was dozing on and off, eventually alighted a stop late and end up at ps. upon reaching cathay i called and ask where's him and after about 5+min of walking around, and whilst on the phone he said 'level 5 so big ar?' den i decided to ask him 'are you at cathay or cineleisure?' and that's when i realised we were at wrong place. i was rather unhappy because i was quite tired and now there's such nonsense. told him we meet at ps then (that's the furthest i will go). no movie today and i doubt i can stay through the whole show anyway.
the weather was so wonderful this morning-if you were allowed to just lay in your bed and sleep through it cos it was pouring! i really need to train myself to wake up the instance the alarm goes off. i was pretty much awake today but i didnt leave my bed till my morning call came.
i did enjoy my work today despite everything's in a mess; the client has omitted some entries and when i called to enquire, he said he has left them out because he didnt know what to do =.='''. the company traded in their vehicle and bought a new one, hire purchase was thus amended with redemption in the scheme and other stuff...that's why im sometimes contradicting myself by saying i want to audit small companies when the accountant of those small companies are usually self-proclaimed. boss was pms-ing today, cant stand him.
during lunch, chai and shanice were talking about cancer and how their closed one were hit/ currently fighting with it. shanice said her family has got the hereditary type...today's lunch was really meaningful because we didnt just bitch; i got to know that those with traits of determination and a very very very strong will of survival do make miracles...not that they survive eventually but their lives were prolonged and you know how precious time is in such situations...
i've got alot of things i want to do but time's passing so quickly...today pk was saying her time was passing very slow and she dont mind giving chai her time cos chai was complaining time's running fast. i cant agree with chai more, i feel that 24hrs is so not enough. im also a strong believer in that whatever you want to do you should do it in New York minute, at least you wont regret what you never did.
battle's finally over, drowned my sorrow at an irish bar, kilkenny and vsop accompanied me. this month i might not be surviving well, spent afew hundred on shopping and more to come. pay day faster come!
dec's going to be super busy, SUPER. i promised to go along with some plans but im a lazy person...shall have to force myself out then. dec shall be a tiring month.
i cant wait for 2009 to be over! once 2010 come i will start anew, better, stronger, fresher, brainier and whatever.
off to hide all my notes, temporarily.
for those who is going to ask me how i think i will fare for exam:
Last night i tried to memorise some models and theories for business analysis, but it's darn lengthy, i wonder how can i afford to remember them by wednesday, plus i've got tons of read-up to do. meanwhile i was listening to a london radio station capital fm95.8 happily until the internet connection was lost, then i swtiched to power 98 via the radio in the living room and russian roulette was up. actually most of the songs on radio are the usuals, heard bad romance, sober, meet me halfway, you belong with me, empire state of mind, party in the usa etc etc. most of them are my current fav and that's a bad thing...because i was supposed to be studying.
I still havent watch ama 2009, so wanted to see the full show. anyway here's pink's sober at vma 2009. i thought gaga was doing great but i prefer pink's performance! she's doing acrobatic acts! Enjoy
i have to start mugging again later, this time there's no calculation involved =D
cant wait for tomorrow but im afraid of disappointment. i think i have high expectation because currently i feel that the design still isnt as bold and dark as i want it, im not in awe. i remembered the last time i saw it, i think that the design kicks ass, but now when i recall, hmm, i feel like i want it more. might want to head to kino tomorrow too, one at ngee ann to buy books for leisure. estimated amount spent in total for tomorrow: SGD550+ *grunt...
i should be worrying about my exam instead since today's paper was disastrous. so far everyone told me they just hope to get 50, even john. i dont know are they all being humble and speaking from the bottom of the heart or well...
ok off to pack away the unwanted notes and starting out on P3 business analysis
current song played: highway to hell by AC/DC what a time to random such a song, bad omen. currently taking a short break from the studying. though i say to take a break, but i think im going to tuck in real soon. cant wait for tomorrow's paper to be over and then i will go relax and chill before mugging again on tuesday.
There ain’t no reason things are this way. Its how they always been and they intend to stay. I can't explain why we live this way, we do it everyday.
Preachers on the podium speakin’ of saints in seance, Prophets on the sidewalk beggin’ for change, Old ladies laughing from the fire escape, cursing my name. I got a basket full of lemons and they all taste the same, A window and a pigeon with a broken wing, You can spend your whole life workin’ for something Just to have it taken away. People walk around pushing back their debts, Wearing pay checks like necklaces and bracelets, Talking ‘bout nothing, not thinking ‘bout death, Every little heartbeat, every little breath. People walk a tight rope on a razors edge Carrying their hurt and hatred and weapons. It could be a bomb or a bullet or a pen Or a thought or a word or a sentence.
There ain't no reason things are this way. It's how they always been and they intend to stay I don’t know why I say the things I say, but I say them anyway. But love will come set me free Love will come set me free,I do believe Love will come set me free, I know it will Love will come set me free, yes.
Prison walls still standing tall, Some things never change at all. Keep on buildin’ prisons, gonna fill them all, Keep on buildin’ bombs, gonna drop them all. Working your fingers bear to the bone, Breaking your back, make you sell your soul. Like a lung that’s filled with coal, suffocatin’ slow. The wind blows wild and I may move, The politicians lie and I am not fooled. You don't need no reason or a three piece suit to argue the truth. The air on my skin and the world under my toes, Slavery stitched into the fabric of my clothes, Chaos and commotion wherever I go, love I try to follow.
Love will come set me free Love will come set me free, I do believe Love will come set me free, I know it will Love will come set me free, yes.
There ain't no reason things are this way It’s how they always been and they intend to stay I can't explain why we live this way, we do it everyday. (Ain't no reason by Brett Dennon)
today's a fucking bad day, being bothered by people, and all guys. one kept pestering me to reply him some stuff, which i must also wait until my friend revert. have not even settle one issue then ask me another thing again, asshole.
another fellow, damn greedy and coward, gave him advice and after i had indirectly giving him a piece of my mind, he still turned a deaf ear. last minute then call me and gave excuses. was mad with him earlier on and so i ran out for a run to cool down. after i got home he called again, damn. if tomorrow the issue is not settled, i think i will throw my temper at him again. usually it's only one side because i think he knows me my character too and so never fight back, but behind my back maybe he will also complain to others. too bad for him because if he does, my spies will report to me and he will be a goner.
last one, shall not elaborate much. will be heading out later at night, come back then settle all at once.
give peace a chance...
will there be one day that i can pass without getting angry or flare up?
final update: that guy called back and thankfully the situation got better. again i insist tomorrow morning he better execute what i said. ok at least, my mood got better slightly
Im a goner, with the exam around the corner, i went out shopping...thankfully i didnt see any display of carrera, but i saw dre headphones...damn it, priced at $240, im going to get my hands on it! well...after im settled with the gothic print.
ant asked me out to watch new moon, of course! i didnt remind wendy about it because i've got no money for entertainment (from all the shopping). but when ant asked me i texted wendy, she says she's going to watch it in malaysis =.=''' oh well, then i will go alone then (who wont when there's free movie? especially during these 'hard' times).
done with the slacking, havent really start studying and 1 dec is already ending...shall go on and start P3 now, targeted sleeping time: 6am.
I'm getting from bad to worst, it's so empowering and arduous for me to control. I'm going to jeopardize everything if i continue...Need to constantly keep this in mind: there is nothing more destructive than anger, it destroys our peace and happiness in this life. Sincerely apologetic to those that were in contact with me at times when i was being very harsh. I know you guys are real friends, to be tolerating me and im really guilty.
Something lighthearted, made a trip to the office this morning to clear something up and to print some personal stuff but then the printer ran out of ink. Ran some errand before settling down in the library to mug. Underestimated tax, i had fucking no idea what's the loss relief system for groups and all the big topics towards the end. Damn hell with tax...the only thing i concluded was IRAS made good revenue for S'pore, everything also want to calculate and tax...kns
Ok that wasnt lighthearted, this one will be: I've got John Lennon's album finally. Fyi, he was murdered by gunshots, 3 bullets, if i remembered correctly (read about him damn long ago). His songs are classic and we actually hear them but i bet people just didnt know it was sung by him.
Oh yeah i was so proud of myself today. I ran non-stop, like for the longest distance since i started to jog on my own accord. Started from my usual spot but this time i covered all the way until the other side of the canal, a full round! I dont know the estimated distance but it's damn long! I had track for almost everything and for running or gym it would be gaga (her songs have got nice dance beats). I used to listen to soundtracks for jogging, perhaps that explains my lousy stamina haha. For mugging it's another a mixture of my j'adore songs from various artists. I dont believe in the shuffle system of ipod because 80% of the time i would be like 'oh im no longer loving that song' and then skip the majority of them. Lullaby would be elevator music. Reading for leisure would also be those of similar genre, otherwise i think i will be humming or singing along.
A lengthy entry today. Not going to tuck in anytime soon since i took a looong nap. Tomorrow will be mugging out if im not lazy, and then heading to heeren after that. It feels sucky to be poor, sian.
yesterday's mugging was rewarding, was at shaw house with qp. yes, shaw house, i know many just couldnt believe it when i told them that but it's actually an ideal place to study, with the noise at the right level haha.
woke up this morning and decided to go for a swim. did 9laps and i was already dying and so i got up to tan. the sun was so not suppportive, i laid under the sun for for about 1+hour before the sky starts to turn dark....and it's ironic because yesterday i just bought mac foundation and today i went for a tan...should tan then go buy foundation instead lo...pk coming back on sunday and i think i cant ask her to buy other mac products for me cos getting hard on cash; bought a lg crystal hp for bro this week, coach wristlet, stock up cosmetics and intending to buy new clothes and bag too...
heading out later to parkway to continue my knn tax. shall go pack my bag now.
ms eng was so excited to find me today, and i thought it's something to do with work but instead she told me 'klm is having promo! package to go bali is less than $300!' and after finding out more, the dates of departures are 1st and 2nd week of december...
i think 99% i would be called back to office during my days off...damn it...and today i was given new job...damn sian...
my spending habits are getting out of control...need to find alternative sources of income to cover my spending. passed by cold storage just now, ok i intentionally walked in to cold storage, and im glad to see kilkenny! =D
Baby I'm feeling so out of this world, Baby with your I'm a different girl Ohhh, ohhh, ohhh you're my future love.
Baby could we make a home in the stars Baby somewhere in a galaxy far Ohh, ohhh, ohh you're my future love
Ohohohoh, I want your fu-fu-fu-fu future love I want your fu-fu-fu-fu future love, Would you be my fu-fu-fu-fu future love I want your fu-fu-fu-fu future love Would you be my fu-fu-fu future man I wanna fu- fuck you as hard as I can Would you be in my fu- future plans I want a fu-fu-fu future man.
came across this artist's works and i fell in love with it right away! got one of his works as my desktop wallpaper.
milk milk milk artificial growth
exam's coming and need to really get into that study mood. please dont tempte me with any other things! by the way i said 'yes' to bali next year and will be staying at hard rock hotel and also genting trip right after exam...if nothing crops up (might even meet qp and her gang since they're driving up). but im in dilemna...should i go to st james or genting??? cos this 2 events will clash...and i have yet to make my stand clear...
meanwhile a constant reminder to myself - i need to change my spectacles. im afraid that i cant resist temptation and buy a carrera champion......gosh
i was up today at 7am! incredible, it's even earlier than days that i need to go to work in which i would most probably be up at 830am. in reality i was up very early in the weekdays too, it's just that i am too lazy to get out of bed.
i was amazed for getting up so early because had a drink last night. i thought i woke up feeling still abit of a hungover but i can still make it to work later. am going out to buy papers later and then head off to work. havent had breakfast yet because we had ran out of coffee, im faithful to the coffee i drink.
last night was pretty good, the ambience was not bad and the drink was fantastic. had martinis and pints and jugs of beer. food was good too, i couldnt finish my beef and guinness pie. however i did text sharon in the midst saying that it was pretty boring because you cant dance there...there was a live band and i supposed the gang was constantly rolling their eyes whenever gaga's songs came out because i will be fanatic. and just realised yesterday another colleague using same ringtone as me....bad romanace....now there's a total of 4 people...qp's using it too!
im worn-out, and perhaps this is why im feeling doleful. i finally opened and read the tons of letters that i have, as an individual i think the letters that im receiving is considered immensely huge. amongst the usual statements and bills, i've got letters from insurance companies detailing my policy and investment. just recently banked in a very small amount from the insurance house. i hate to see monthly statements fmo banks, i was just looking at my october bill and i wondered when did i go to xxxxbar? thankfully i didnt spend alot. i really have a real bad memory, i dont remember lending money to people until they return me...
just today the gang reminded me that we went to a bar in orchard, and they say it was me who brought them there....and i was totally at a loss and only managed to recall that when i think real hard...after maybe five minutes...
tomorrow will be heading for 2012 movie and friday to durty nellys. i think i really pamper myself but need to control my spending too. had lunch with ms eng today (a VERY humble mother and wife). she was contemplating of starting another business, i didnt contribute much because i dont see myself liking it but chai immediately says count her in. chai's also quite capable, owning a few apartments in msia and collect rental income.
im sourcing for an alternative income, a stable one, so that you dont have to slog and work so hard for that pathetic salary. especially i never like accounts =.='''
